Bad Mom

So if you're my friend on Facebook, you know that Mema has been in NC for the week and I have been going in late in the mornings after I get the kids on the bus.  Monday night Aidan didn't sleep well at all... tossed and turned, wimpered and whined.  On Tuesday morning, the kids got dressed early and were ready for the bus with plenty of time to spare (I even straightened T's hair for her).  I snapped a quick picture because they looked so darn cute.

Immediately after the picture, Aidan declared he was NOT going to school.  He threw off his backpack, threw off his coat, then plopped down on the chair and refused to move.  I, of course, raised my voice and demanded his cooperation... to which he did not comply.  As the bus was approaching, I was forceably putting his coat and backpack on while pushing him to the door.  As he was fighting me, crying, and incessantly saying 'Noooo, I'm NOT going to school today', I was dragging him by the arm down the driveway and to the bus.  I even picked him up to put him on the bottom step of the bus!  He did pause to give me a quick kiss through the tears (and he was thoroughly embarrassed because he doesn't like for anyone to see him cry).  I felt terrible...horrible... sad...   And then today, I felt even worse! 

He had green junk coming out of his eye last night and when he awoke this morning, it was swollen shut and full of green yuckiness!  It took 10 minutes to clean it up and I quickly realized he would not be going to school today... which meant no Christmas party, no gift exchange, no last day before break fun.  Because I missed so much work when I was sick, I ended up taking Aidan to Dan's work for an hour before his doctor appointment.  Dan says he was great... listening quietly to music through headphones and writing letters.  He even got to go to his first office meeting.  And then after everyone mentioned how quiet and good Aidan was being, he shouted (because of the headphones) 'Dad, how do you make a big 'D'?' right in the middle of the meeting!  Funny moment for sure... hate I missed it!  So, the doctor tells us he has an ear infection AND pink eye... which is probably why he didn't sleep well the other night and probably why he didn't want to go to school yesterday... yes, I get the bad mom of the year award!  Seriously, how much worse can you feel?  And as if that wasn't enough, we had to hold him down to give him his medicine and eye drops tonight... literally, hold him down, kicking and screaming, for both!  Poor boy.  I'm a bad mom.

This morning after I cleaned up his eye!

Tonight after holding him down, kicking and screaming.